challenge and frustration

Nothing but water - yerba mate' tea with lemon and honey. the bentonite clay is a centuries old Indian tradition. It takes toxins out of the body. just gathers them up. the psyllium husk moves it out. I usually do 3 days of that - once in the morning. I thought about doing it again after work but didn't. instead I made a big cup of hops/skullcap/mint and read a book. I weigh 146 this morning. I guess I want immediate gratification. gee, who doesn't? One thing about the water diet.. or not eating a lot and drinking lots of water is that you have to be in a situation where you can pee every 20 to 40 minutes or so. That can be annoying. Sometimes I eat something bulky because I know I'm going to be in a situation where I can't do that. see where that's gotten me.
It's windy out but the dog really misses going for a run. so I'll take her.. and myself. I thought about how good the jogging is for me. On the way up I let my brain rattle around, but on the way down I go through my chakras and try to get grounded. I got into doing that when I was in bumfuck Louisiana and jogged along the Mississippi river levee. At that time I just memorized the chakras and what each was for. Now I visualize each one as swirling around me. and in me. plus I get my 20 minutes of sunshine - good for the psyche. I run 1 mile up a killer hill. I've thought about pushing that further. well, first I have to get that 1 mile going. then we'll see. the hold up is time, but if I get off this computer and out the door, I'll be o.k. Anyway, I told someone about my blog and he told me about a book called "Younger Next Year" and one of the premises in the book was to do something over the edge. Aside from wanting to lose 10 pounds (by next week), I told him I wanted to hike up to Conundrum Hot Springs near Carbondale. It's an 8 mile hike. Up. With a pack. so, you think maybe I could start running more than 1 mile. then add weight. One of my favorite movies is "Ruthless People" with Bette Midler, and she is kidnapped and has nothing to do so starts working out in these people's basement and eating carrot sticks and gets in shape. (Fav. famous movie quote - "Give the bag to Bozo...") Another inspiration was Sylvester Stallone talked about losing weight after he had to be a donut eating cop in "Copland" and he said, you just have to be a little hungry all the time. oh, so then, the article after the healthy gut article in my magazine is about Mindful Eating. slowing down and paying attention to every nugget. so, there. There's today inspiration. Run, run.