vegetables for breakfast

Like exercise, if I get vegetables first thing in the morning, it's done and I'm off to a good start...
Today I had spring rolls with dipping sauce. This after I went out and collected some tree limbs to use for kindling. Call it exercise, at least it was something.
I chortled to myself as I walked up the hill - mildly aerobic - that I had investigated getting a heart monitor so as to get the most of my workouts. The monitor measures your max output so that you stay under that level and therfore get more from aerobic exercise. Yeah, well, far from it lately. I just don't know what's going to get me back in action.
For now, I'm going to try to eat sort of right and at least get out for a walk of sorts.

One thing

I suppose it's important to have goals. Today it's "get out of bed and go to work."
I have a killer fever blister...haven't had one in ages, and this one hurts all the way up the side of my face giving me a headache. Two days now.
Exercise is not something I want to do, but work is good for getting out of myself.
I figure if I do one thing good for me, at least it's something. So, I'm going to try to eat well.
I worry about food. I worry that I won't have enough. Sometimes that makes me overeat. I have no idea where that comes from...well, maybe I do. My mother. She always carried a snack. Nuts. An orange. Take note that my mother nibbled very little in an anorexic way but always had food handy. (she most likely still does, I'm just not around her.) (and p.s., she's in her 80s, on no medication and very healthy)
It's a habit. I always have food. Do I have fear of hunger? I certainly eat unecessarily.
So, I'm going to take that with me today. I'm not going to starve. I'm going to eat just enough.
And I have spring rolls with incredible dipping sauce for dinner. Aaahh. Vegetables. Elixer of life.
Hopefully, one good turn will lead to the next. Eat right = exercise = feel better.

Routine

It doesn't matter if it's doing it or writing it, if I skip a day, I skip a week or a month! That goes for writing this blog as well as exercising. It's not just that I don't have anything good to say, it's a matter of routine.
Now that all birthday festivities are behind me... and let me tell you, they are behind me all right... chocolate cake and lobster in vanilla butter with heavy cream all went straight to my behind...I plan on getting back into the routine.
And really, I have been out for a walk here and there. When I'm feeling a bit introverted, I prefer walking up the hill behind the house rather than up the road to the mailbox.
There are 3 rock outcroppings up the hill. I puffed up to the first one 2 days ago. Yesterday I was a slug.
Today I went up to the second outcropping. I didn't feel too bad either.
I think I can get back into my routine.
Keep in mind that if my goal is to hike up to Conundrum hot spring, the second, even the third outcropping is about one tenth the distance to Conundrum. I am far from in shape, but not too far out of shape.
Ever the optimist.
Optimism plus a giant stack of jeans in the back of my closet that don't fit me and 3 pair in my drawer that actually fit me.
Here's to my routine and jeans that fit.

oh diet blog, oh diet blog; wherfore art thou oh diet blog?

It's not quite as bad as I thought. It feels like it's been a month since I've had any good health activity. Days have come and gone everwhelmed with depression or some kind of angst. Rare is any type of aerobic movement.
Took the dog for a walk. and I mean "walk." I spun. spinned. span. (yeah, I got your "span". I'm spanning the wasteband on my pants.) I did it better than the last time. I "spotted" the stovepipe like a ballerina and was less dizzy at the finish. I went 11 time the first time and 10 the second for the total of 21 that is supposed to be enlightening. I'll get back to you on that one.
My diet has been questionable. lots of chocolate and fried foods. You'd think it would all be over but my birthday was yesterday and I'm having a party this coming Sunday, so it's food galore around my house. I blanched chopped and roasted almonds this morning in preparation for one of the amazing cakes I have planned. Got so far as propping the puff pastry recipe up on the counter. I can start that any time and do it in stages. All foods involve massive amounts of white flour, butter and sugar.
I'm having a big salad for lunch.
So hurray for me.
Baby steps. and totally tummy food. Maybe I'll work on portion control for now.

Took my vitamins, forgot to spin

Damn. I ate really great food yesterday and then, in bed, watching a movie had a big fat sourdough hard roll with big fat butter. I weighed more this morning. 
Was also in a bad mood (due to the aforementioned spousal problems) and blew off sledding. Then I forgot to spin.
Today is just going to go down the tubes in my book. I am bummed out with myself.
Tomorrow will be better.

Out the Door I Went and then I tried Spinning

If I can just concentrate on this one thing, maybe I can experience success. Put my boots on and get out the door!
I thought, "Oh hell, I'll go up the little hill and make a sledding run."
So I trudged, and I mean TRUDGED!, up the little hill. This is the alternative sledding hill that is on the north side in the trees, so the snow is still there. The daytime temps have been warm, so things are slick. It took me forever to break through the drifts, and I couldn't believe how out of breath I was. Geez.
It was slick, sure enough, but this hill is not too steep so it wasn't too scary. But fun enough. So, I went again. And then again for the 3 requisite runs to call it exercise. And, sure enough, it was fun.
I then tried something new...Spinning. Not cycling. just what it says. spin around in a circle. become dizzy.
A friend I saw at the grocery store yesterday told me about it. You spin 21 times. First, go 5 times. Stop until the world stops going around. Then do it again. Do it like that (practice) until you can go the whole 21 times. Find a focus (like ballerinas). Go in a clockwise direction. This is a meditation practice like whirling dervishes. It is said the lamas do it 21 times just enough to stimulate the vortexes into action. Negative residues are flung out of the body and the bridge is strengthened between the left and right hemispheres. Spinning stimulates the body's energy system and wakes up the chakras.
So, get out the door and spin. Spinning into the new year. Hopefully not spinning out of control. Hopefully, just the opposite. Spinning grounds you. I be grounded. I will hit the ground running and then spin to become more grounded. Run and spin. Sled and spin. Eat right and spin.
And I took my vitamins today - to clarify, my supplements, which includes the 5HTP that keeps me level (happy?). B Vitamins help my nerves. Oils help my brain balance.
I guess balance is the key.
So here's to spinning to stay balanced. One thing leads to another. All things lead to good health.

The NEW Year/ The NEW Plan

Here we go.
Okay, my horoscope says, don't rush into things or expect things all at once.
So, I'm paraphrasing, but this means, stick with my goals. Keep after it. and, gee, how hard is it to get your ass out the fucking door and move?
I mean, sure. Once I get started, it's o.k. Getting out the door is the big problem.
I had a beautiful chat with a friend the other day. It became obvious that whatever I'm doing (NOT doing) isn't working for me.
so, change.
I didn't do anything for the last.. uh... 3 days? I can't even remember. My husband, who is feeling better by the way (gee, holidays behind us?), pointed out to me that my sledding hill in the woods is packed and looking pretty icy. sounds like fun (or death).
I have to do it tomorrow morning or it will be melted as the temps are getting up in the 50s.
and then.. with the warm weather we're having, I truly have no excuse for not getting out there. oh, well, right after I... a) start taking my vitamins again (fight, fight, fight iron poor blood!!) and b) quit eating sugar for pretty much breakfast lunch and dinner (mostly in the form of chocolate and beer and wine and gin).
So, I'm going to picture the door.. and me going through it. Just, go OUT the door. Through that door is change. Go THROUGH  the door.
Meanwhile, I'm going to sign up for a weight loss contest I saw in a healthy magazine. Anything for motivation....
...and a local trainer here in little burg said, "yes," a heart monitor really is important for a good workout program so as to get the most of my workout.
I'm thinkin' I'll get the most out of my workout when I actually DO my workout. Remember back a couple month ago before my kitchen was full of fudge?... I think I ran 6 days in a row once.
Get out the door. Remember Alice. Through the looking glass. Chase the rabbit. Chasing better health. Chasing those pounds!