hmmm on the yoga

      Walking, working in the yard, wonderful weather.
But, let me tell you, the 21 Day Yoga challenge is a toughy.
I've had some nasty lower back and sciatic (sp?) issues and I think it's from trying to do this yoga..
You get a different video every day and even though I'm at beginner level, it's hard and not real slow.. I mean somewhat, but to follow along, I think I've twisted and hurt something.. so
I'm kinda on the Every other Day Yoga Challenge.
I took a bunch of advil last night and some this morning, lay (lie layed laid) on the floor, did stretches, walked up to the mailbox (1 mile) and feel pretty good.
fine fine I'll be fine.
oh, and, hey, I'll lose this fucking fatso weight too.
plus I came up with another incentive (which also involves winning lotto for money) but if I lose this weight, I want to get my hair done/colored really cool. oh, self esteem, you are under all that flab!
love and peace
and
carry on.

I hate this

I look in the mirror and I see the weight on my face.
I'm wearing a tank top and when I turn my arm it looks like the twisted trunk of a Bristlecone Pine tree.
I am stagnant at 150 pounds.
Ugh.

Yes to yoga

Nice, really nice but sheesh, not so easy.
Had I not done yoga before, I'd be having a really hard time with this so called beginner series.
Today's was a 20 min. workout. Day 3. I'm on track now.
...and I already walked up to the mailbox with the dog.
I also wanted to say that yesterday I think was the first time since I started this blog that I felt totally guilted into doing the yoga challenge just because I said so here.
the tweaky twingy shoulder seems to be better with yoga.
My back wants to sit up really straight right now. I'm sure I'll regress and revert later in the day to my usual slouch.. but for now..
Let's see how it feels to hang out laundry (before it gets too windy).
ah, well, back to 149. what a trend. maybe I can stick with it.
This time.

I jogged, I hiked, I played with kids

....but I didn't do yoga.
The 21 Day Yoga Challenge has been sending me emails for days 2-5.
You know I did Day 1.
Then it was the weekend.
So, today I did Day 2. It was WONDERFUL. It was only 11 minutes long. But challenging! Balance. Twisting. Thinking good thoughts.
So maybe this afternoon I'll do Day 3. (yeah right)
We went on a 3 mile hike yesterday. I found 1 chewed up set of antlers.
I played "spike the beach ball" with my 6 year old granddaughter yesterday.
I worked.
I did 2 wheelbarrows of what I am now calling "The dirt relocation program." My husband has been giving me lots of positive strokes about how great it is that I'm filling in the ruts at the low spot in the driveway. Psychology in action.
So if I don't meet my challenge of dropping 16 pounds by July 22, do I still get new clothes? The challenge is to fit into all the cute ones I have now. Seems kind of counter productive to not get new clothes for meeting my goal. Seems like if I just stay fat, I can go shopping and get clothes that are cute and disguise my flab. (eeewwww, that's motivation enough right there!)
New goal: New outfits for weightloss.
(win lotto, get money for aforementioned prize)
Lose weight. Get money. Isn't that a TV show?
Okay, let's just get back to the routine. Eat right. Exercise.

More Yoga

I joined a "21 Day Yoga Challenge" through Yoga Journal Magazine.
Everyday they send me a new yoga workout. How can I ignore my email?
It was a very gentle 20 minute routine. I liked it.
My right arm/shoulder has been horrible and everytime I raised and lowered my arms that shoulder popped and crackled. I hope it was helping.
Meanwhile I haven't lost any weight. 149. well, o.k., gained and lost the same pound from the 150 mark.

Exercise to lose weight

This is the message I am trying to send to myself.
Since I started "Total Motivation" at "6weeks2buff", I've lost no weight. It's been a week since I started keeping a food diary.
According to the calorie calculator, I could have 1,800 a day.
Without trying very hard, I eat about 1,200. Which is about right for wanting to lose weight.
So what's the problem?
Yesterday I went up to the mailbox twice.
Got 1 wheelbarrow of dirt for the driveway.
Today, I went up to the top of the hill through the woods. A good walk/hike.
Even my baggy pants are tight. So depressing.
My right shoulder and left knee have been bothering me horribly.
I added some yoga stretches to my day for that.
One, I use a wash cloth to reach behind my back to stretch my shoulder/arms. Eventually, I should not need the washrag as a crutch - my hands should meet.
This morning my left hip was totally whacked. Thus the hike up the hill.
Fuck this not feeling limber and energetic.
However, it just goes to show, don't take care of the body as a temple and it goes to hell. That is not going to happen in my life.
Like Dr. Phil would say, "How's that working out for you?"
Well, I keep hanging in there. I'm still doing this. I started this blog last October? I''ve gotten nowhere?

Food I love that's fattening

I love butter and mayonaisse. I love them together with garlic and herbs. I put them on vegetables. I've thought about giving them up but I love them. I also love ranch dressing. I figure, it makes my salad so delectable, it's worth it. I also love cheese on my salad. fattening.
yesterday I had oil and vinegar on my salad. with the cheese, it was still really delicious.
I've been reading "Yoga Journal." I love that magazine. All the people in it are thin and healthy looking and spiritual. I love their clothes. I do yoga sometimes, but really, it just makes me want to buy those cool yoga chothes.
I too will be thinner and healthier looking one day soon.
I am really really working hard on it.
I am.